Friday, March 27, 2015


{Taken just after Elisha came home in July - just 8 months ago!}

It has been just two weeks since our precious Elisha met Jesus.

Our hearts still ache and we miss him everyday.

I never would have imagined that just two weeks ago he would leave us so soon.

Several months ago when he was really sick and his body was so weak,

I made him promise he'd fight hard and attend our Wedding.

True to his word he followed it through.

He attended our wedding with a sweet bow tie to match!

Then just a few days later,

while we were on our honeymoon we received the news that 
our sweet boy had passed away.

So much grief and many tears where shed.

The ache coming home has been so hard...

Seeing his empty crib has left such a terrible ache.

There is nothing like the pain you feel losing a child.

So much raw pain and grief.

Our Elisha was such a precious little guy.

He was always looking to be held, cuddled or talked to.

I'd find him and hold him in the evenings as we took milk before bed.

He'd smile really big as I would feed him through his feeding tube.

So full of life and love.

At night when I would go down to check just one more time usually just before midnight,

I'd walk the rooms, check temps, rub foreheads, fix blankets.

Kiss little ones goodnight one more time,

I'd always kiss Elisha and tell the nannies and night nurse to keep an eye on Elisha.

Because every night Macey and I would worry about him.

Now that your gone, sweet Elisha, 
I struggle when I go down to say goodnight at midnight..

The Nannies and Nurses even told me they missed me telling 
them to keep a close eye on you.

Oh my precious boy how we miss you so...

Elisha's smile would always brighten my day without fail!

In the mornings his smile would greet me,
And as I'd kiss our kiddo's goodnight,

He'd be there to say goodnight with a smile.

Even when he would be having high fevers and admitted in the hospital back in 
November his smile wouldn't leave.

Finally after two nights admitted he was released and came home.

In early January Elisha headed to Kenya for a new PEG feeding tube.

We lovingly called him our World traveler!! 

Elisha fought long and he fought hard,
his little body had struggled so long.

Each day was a daily struggle for life, yet he fought on and he was so brave.

{One of my favourite pictures of him with his nanny Eva and my husband holding him
 while we were at the zoo.}

Our Elisha loved life and he loved people so well.

{Taken of my Dad and Elisha at the Zoo day back in January!}

Oh my precious Elisha,

We miss you more then words can say..

Our hearts ache for you and we long to hold you in our arms just one more time.

Now your dancing with Jesus and I can only imagine what it's like,

To see you run like you so longed to do.

I hope you're jumping and leaping on those golden streets.

Hug Arthur and Jason for me okay?!

Oh my sweet boy what a sight it will be to see,
 to have my three boys together again.

I miss you my precious Elisha more then words can say.

I love you my precious boy and  I can't wait to hold you again..

All my love,


Bonnie Harver said...

So incredibly sad Emma....I can't imagine your pain. Please know you are in our prayers 😔

Jamie said...

What a sweet, sweet gift from God. I am so very sorry for your loss.

Emma Holmes said...

This was beautiful to read <3 I am so sorry for your loss, but it truly is comforting to think of him in Gods arms now <3

Kathleen Vaughan said...

Oh, Emma, I didn't know! He was such a delightfully sweet little guy! I know he had a wonderful "Welcome Home!" in heaven, but my heart aches for you. May you feel our Father's loving arms around you as you grieve the loss of your sweet Elisha. Praying for you!

Becky L. said...

Oh sweet Emma! What a sweet Elisha and even though I didn't know him, I feel your loss and pray as you go through your days without him. So thankful for the promise of heaven because Jesus loved us so much. Hugs and prayers and thanks for sharing this special story. Thankful he is well in heaven, just as my mom is too!

Sophie Tirado said...

Hi EmmaLee,
I found you on Instagram through your sister's posts and have loved seeing your story shared there as well as here on your blog. I'm wondering if the Gem Foundation has a website of its own or if there's another way I can learn more about it? I'm not sure why, but I feel like I'm supposed to. Please let me know! Thanks,

Sophie Tirado said...

Hi EmmaLee,
I found you on Instagram through your sister's posts and have so enjoyed seeing/reading about your story there as well as here on your blog. I was wondering if the Gem Foundation has a website or if there's another way I can learn more about it? I don't know why but I feel like I'm supposed to. Let me know, thanks!