Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Just One More

Today marks one year since you were welcomed into Jesus’s arms.

No more seizures. No longer struggling to breathe.

Healed and whole, now drawing in sweet heavenly air.

With every month that passes,

I count how many months it has been since I’ve held you in my arms...

I imagine what it would have been like to see you toddle and
how you would look with your first teeth.

Would you like to eat Avocado? Or only rice like baby Joshua?

So many precious firsts I wish I could have had with you.

With every month my heart aches and I long for just one more day.

Just one more.


September 2nd, 2014.

I woke up to screaming and hearing the night shift nanny running on the stairs,

pounding on my door, I swung it open.

Within one minute we were downstairs in record speed

as they yelled to me that you weren’t breathing.

In the kitchen I laid you on the floor and I started CPR.

With every breath, I begged you to breathe.

Panic coursed through our veins, we cried out.

I ran up the stairs and searched for my keys.

We rushed to the Emergency room at the local hospital near by,

With tears streaming down my face, I held you in my arms,

The doctor said it was too late, 

 I begged him to be wrong, 

I begged him to do something.

He told me he was so sorry...

Berna, our night nurse, and I clung to each other…

We cried and screamed, so painful that moment was.

So much grief and sorrow.

Pain like I'd never experienced,

 the raw ache of losing a child.

Our sweet baby boy you had left us so soon..

Each month we had with you we fell more in love.

Before I met you, I loved you. 

Just the sound of your name on my lips and I couldn’t wait to hold you for myself.

From the moment you were first placed in my arms, we had a special bond.

I called you my best "accessory"  and you were never far from my side.

I carried you everywhere and as you had seizures in my sling, I’d pray healing over you.

We called you, “baby Awfur” as the littles pronounced it. 

You had our heart from the very very start.

Oh my precious baby boy, how we long to hold you in our arms one more time.

I longed to see you toddle around and to see that smile of yours.

I can’t wait until I meet you again, heaven is so very sweet with three of my 

little loves waiting for me.

You my baby boy are so very loved and won’t ever ever be forgotten.

We miss you and we love you with all our hearts.

Today we praise Jesus for the life you lived.

What a gift you are my sweet baby boy.

So humbled am I that I was chosen to love you and call you mine.

I will carry you in my heart always, 

long beyond the empty cradle that's now filled once again.

 I will praise Jesus who has chosen me to love you if only for a short season.

Sometimes heaven seems so far away from us,

but we cling to Jesus who brings us comfort.

In your short life you left an impact the size of the universe.

Because of you, we choose to  love and we love fiercely.

For loving sometimes may be painful and bring deep grief and sorrow.

But you my sweet baby boy are worth every painful breath, every sob and every tear.

If I was told before that I would only have a few precious months with you,

I would do it all over again in a heart beat.

For you my sweet baby boy are worth it all and so much more.

Today we remember you my baby Arthur.

I will love you forever and always miss you.

Dance with Jesus my sweet baby boy, dance!

Until I hold you again.


Tuesday, August 4, 2015

One Year Of Gems

We have just recently had the incredible Joy of celebrating one year of caring for our Gems!

I sit here trying to put into words all that God has done here in our Home at
 The Gem Foundation.

Words don’t seem to do it justice...Moments flash through my memory.

Oh how I wish to share those precious moments with you.

We look back over this past year and we celebrate all that God has done!

It has been one year since we opened our doors and welcomed 
our first 11 gems through our partner Organization Watoto Childcare ministries.

We laughed as God brought us all boys and wondered when our girls would come!

Overnight our quiet empty home was full of life and love and now running 24 hour care!

What Joy as we were humbled and honoured that God would use us to 
be able to love and care for His most precious gems.

There was little sleep in the first few months, 
but with each baby placed in my arms we fell more in love.

Little by little word spread and soon phone calls were never 
ending and little by little we grew one gem at a time..

Some joined our home through other Orphanage referrals and 
some joined our home through heart breaking abandonment.

Our arms slowly got fuller and our hearts overflowed with God’s faithfulness 
as He met each and every need at just the right timing.

More cribs were ordered and more spaces where turned into bedrooms! 

Here we are now just one year later, 

We can't believe all that has taken place this year.

We Rejoice in His Faithfulness, in His provision, In His Redeeming Restoration.

All because of Jesus.

We celebrated with lots of food, jump houses for the Gems and of course lots of music.

We are so humbled and amazed that we would have the incredible Joy
 of caring for our precious Gems!

We danced and we sung of His Goodness.

Because a Celebration wouldn't be complete without a dance off!

Our Bethany had secretly, unbeknownst to us, 
been working on a song to sing for this special day!

Tears fill my eyes. 

Our Gems have a voice that's just waiting to be heard.

Sweet Bethany sang her heart out!!

Even our Joey got into the action of the Jump houses!

Our arms are full and so are our hearts.

We can't wait to see all that God does in this next year!

One year later,

There have been 30 precious gems cared for and loved!

One precious Gem resettled with her loving family!

Three precious Gems in heaven with Jesus - we miss them everyday!

There are 26 Gems that we currently care for!

28 Staff who lovingly and diligently care for our Gems.

Two years ago we sat at a table just four of us praying for this day.

We never would have imagined what God would do.

You are so Faithful!!

Together we are restoring the value of Special Needs,
One precious Gem at time.

All glory to you Jesus!

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Surgery for Shanita

This week I received a phone call from my dear friend Eunice. 

She shared with me that she knew of a child born with

special needs and she knew that I needed to meet with them.

We quickly arranged for them to come the following day and for us to meet with the family.

We were so touched by Mama Gorettie's dedicated love and care for her precious baby girl.

She deeply loves her and cares for her so well.

When she realised that her daughter had some special needs,

she didn't lose that love for her, but instead reached out for help.

She went to a hospital but found she was unable to

afford the high cost of medical care.

She had no choice but to return home and wait.

As God would have it, He crossed our paths at the perfect timing.

Meet precious baby Shanita and Mama Gorettie

Isn't Shanita adorable?

We are so grateful for the privilege of walking beside Mama Gorettie and

baby Shanita as we journey this road of healing together! 

Mama Gorettie and Shanita will be joining The Gem Foundation's 

Community Outreach to families with children with special needs.

We will be sponsoring her medical care and treatment - through Ruby's Friends

the medical arm of International Voice of the Orphan.

Would you consider being a part of sponsoring 

the medical treatment for Shanita?

If so, please donate here.

Above all else please be praying for Mama Gorettie and baby Shanita!

We are so thankful to have them be part of our Community Outreach

and we can't wait to see all that God does in their lives.